“There’s always a chance that you’ll die young, so get shit done and have some fun” was a thought that came to mind the other night as I was looking through the Wikipedia articles of dead people I admire. It was very educational and inspirational, but also a little somber as I started to think about about how short and unforgiving life can be… I found out that one of my favorite people in history, Oscar Wilde, died pretty much alone, in exile, and in poverty at 46! Considering how much I relate to him and his frustrations with society, it worries me a bit! Haha I’ve pretty much always wanted to die young, begging for the old days, complaining about how terrible the world has become, but at some point in the last four years, that changed. I now want to live as long as possible and see the full scope of everything I’ve put my time into before I die… I want to see my grandchildren! :) I can admit that there’s a little bit more fear of death within me now. Haha
In the same night, I discovered that Adam Adamowicz, an AMAZING video game concept artist that worked on the Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim and Fallout 3 most notably, and another game that I played as a kid called Goblin Commander: Unleash the Horde, lost his battle with lung cancer :(
This is from Bethesda’s address of Adamowicz’s death:
“His artwork and creativity defined our games in so many ways. Many of you have seen his work and seen his unbelievable talents. But many of you never got to see who he was as a person. He was full of life. Always drawing, always creating, and always the most entertaining person in the room.”
This all got me thinking… I have so many things that I want to accomplish, but what if I run out of time? What if I get sick and die before I can finish it all, or get in an epic fatal accident? I could have a heart attack in the middle of a speech and no one would ever know what the hell I meant to say or all the things that I’ve believed but never shared. My secrets would be lost… Some will mourn, others may shrug it off… But then someone’s going to have to write one of these eulogy-type things for me and someone’s going to have to speak at a funeral… especially if I can’t get my plan fully worked out… Yes, I have already planned my funeral! It’s going to be amazing! ;) Maybe I should be the last one to die, so I can hold all the pain instead of leave it with my friends still living! I’m not saying that’s what either of the two men I mentioned in this post did, but if I did, I’d be a restless soul, and since I believe in ghosts… I really don’t want that.
But on the positive side, I’ll likely inspire someone to do some badass, inspirational things. They’ll read my quotes and writing, watch my interviews and performances, hear my music, and decide to make their dreams come true exactly because of that. It’s all very sad, but awesome at the same time.
So, as I said earlier, there’s always a chance that you’ll die young, so get shit done and have some fun.
– Tommy Maverick